Thursday, November 20, 2014

Happy 2nd birthday my (not so) little one

Sanah Helwah Zaynab!

May you will always be the coolness of our eyes.

Your Masjid Birth, Zaynab (A very long post)


Dear Zaynab,

My dear daughter, the coolness of my eyes.

This is a long overdue letter for you. Today marks your 40th day born into this world. It also means that you’ve been with me for 40 days.

Alhamdulillah, you are such an easy baby to take care of. You sleep through the night until I become worry that you’ll get dehydrated. But now, I am happy that you sleep well, so I can get my beauty sleep too.

Baby Zaynab

I've always worried that you decide to pop out before week 36, just like abang Umar, Hamzah and Kakak Sawda. Surges started coming since week 35. And there were a few times that I thought I was going to give birth to you. Prepared all the stuffs and Abah had to stay home most of the time, but Allah swt granted our prayer to keep you as long as you want to be.

Birthing Dream

You knew we have been planning for a homebirth, right? It was all Abah’s idea in the first place. Mak and Abah were watching this movie. JLo was the heroin. There was a homebirth scene in the movie and I guess, that was how Abah got the idea. And I, I was reluctant at first but then I found a wonderful group of mommies in facebook and the rest is history.

I read, studied and do lots of ‘research’ to support my decision. I tried to let go all fears and equipped myself with information and knowledge. I made doa a lot too, praying that Allah swt will make it easy for all of us. I went to check up religiously and made sure I eat properly to keep us fit and healthy. To be honest, I worked hard to make it happen.

birth plan

I have prepared a birth plan and gave it to Dr Hanisah to see if she agrees to the plan. Unfortunately, she said there are some that she couldn't agree with. I also rented the birth pool from Aunty Maria just in case I would want to have a waterbirth although the dream birth I've been visualizing all these while was a night time dry birth - an easy placenta birth a few minutes after that, then Abah would clean up the birth scene, Mak and you will go to sleep. When abang Umar, abang Hamzah and Kakak Sawda wake up the next day, they will be surprise seeing you, Zaynab.

So we passed week 36 and we managed to attend Along’s engagement. Alhamdulillah.

And another week passed by with few nights of intense surges and it was gone the next day. Phew!

Training or Birthing?

And finally week 38 came. I’ve been wanting to join the AMANI Childbirth Education & Doula Training in KL. However, I was worried that I couldn't make it. The surges came and went, just like the previous weeks. The night before the training, I was 50-50. Nenek Siti wasn’t feeling well, so I felt bad to ask her to take care of abang and kakak. But Abah said, he had already made an appointment with his friend that night, so we need to go to KL anyhow. So off we went.

Mak and Abah stayed at Aunty Fathin’s house that night. I had surges, and intense surges till I forced myself to have warm bath at 4 am in the morning.

The next day, when I met Aa’la, Aunty Fathin’s newborn baby, I got oxytoxin intoxicated. Oxytocin will actually help birth to progress. Well, that was exactly what happened to me that morning. The journey from Shah Alam to TTDI was the longest journey I’ve ever had. I had this ‘nak terberak’ urge all the way. I know, it was a progress. Every progress means I will be able to meet you soon.

Finally we reached Masjid Al-Ghufran. There, I met Eidriss and Pelangi. So I got more intoxicated. And more surges came. But I managed to keep calm. As the mantra that I shared on my Facebook wall, “Keep calm and Birth On”.

Masjid Al-Ghufran

The first half of the training went OK. During the 2nd half, we had workshop where we need to do a few exercises so that we got it right. One of the exercises were squatting and boy, I felt good after that. Then, I felt something gushing out from my body and I knew I need to check what that was.

So I went to the toilet on level 2 and checked. It was birth show. I gave birth to Abang Umar a day after the blood show. Abang Hamzah and Kakak Sawda a few hours after that. I knew by then, Insya Allah I will give birth soon.

Birth Mantra

I was supposed to stay at Aunty Kamariah’s house in Bangi that night. I was excited because Aunty Shida and Aunty Nadrah will be there too. But, when I saw the birth show, I had to decline the offer.

... Or Both!

Meanwhile, Abah was supposed to go back to Melaka so he could take care of abang and kakak because Nenek Siti wasn’t feeling well. All the plans had to be cancelled since we wouldn’t know what will happen in the next few hours.

I called Abah and told him about the birth show. In my head, I only have a few options – to go back to Melaka and give birth at home or to stay in KL. If I did not give birth that night, I will still be able to continue the training tomorrow. If you decided to pop out that night, insya Allah, there are plenty of doula-in-training around to help. Even Aunty Aisha will be around to help me. Abah chose the latter option. Plus I have already brought all the basic stuffs along.

The 1st day training ended at 5-ish. I stayed to chit chat with the aunties until 6. Then Aunty Fathin, Rayyan, Jannah and I went to my room while waiting for someone to fetch Aunty Fathin and Abah to arrive.

Birth On...

After Aunty Fathin left, I tried to finish AMANI book because Aunty Aisha didn’t cover the birthing topics yet. Alhamdulillah, the information in the book were easy to digest. Thank you Allah for helping me to understand, increasing my knowledge and hopefully making it beneficial for me.

Abah arrived just after I finished reading and told me that he needed some sleep as he was tired. I needed my dinner for energy supply just in case I will be birthing you that night so I thought OK, I will wake your Abah later. Plus, he said he wanted to join the husband support session at 8.30 pm.

Then I took my bath and performed my prayer. I received a message from Aunty Nuha saying that she was at Aunty Najwa’s room. I decided to go to Aunty Najwa’s room. However, I had already laid down the plastic cover on the floor, prepared your clothes on the bed, put the chux pad and towel at the television rack, just in case.

When I went to Aunty Najwa’s room, she went down to feed Musa. So I chit chatted with Aunty Nuha. She told me to lie down on the bed but the best position was to sit on the chair. We talked mostly about her birthing experience – her position, her support system, the cord cutting, registration, bla bla bla. Every now and then, I experienced very intense surges. When it came, I stopped talking and tried deep breathing. I guess she knew because she kept asking me if I was alright or not. Told her I was OK, but the fact was I already felt the cold sweat and had the urge to go to the toilet. Immediately I knew, I was already in labor.

At 9.45 pm, I had a very very very intense surge that I could not even talked anymore. I told Nuha that I wanted to return to my room to wake Abah up so he could get me something to eat. Yeah, Abah missed the night session because he couldn’t even open his eyes. I reached room 314, tried to wake him up. He didn’t even stir, so I joined him in bed.

10 pm: Another surge came, and that woke me up from my sleep. Felt like needed to do no. 2 (berak) so I went to the toilet. I went there 2 times and the third time I thought, hmm.. if I went there again, I will surely give birth in the toilet.

I squatted a few times and lots of deep breathing. Inhaled until the tummy got bigger and the surges went away. That was my deep birthing method. It worked and it helped me.

The Doula Next Door

10.25 pm: Woke Abah up, told him it’s already time. I BBM-ed Aunty Maria asking her if she could come. I was hoping she hadn’t sleep yet. Couldn’t message Aunty Najwa because she looked tired. Fortunately, Aunty Maria was up.

“Pushing already?” she asked.

“Yes”, I replied.

10.33 pm: She knocked on the door. That was when Abah get out from the bed. Oh Zaynab, he must be too tired that night.

I was sitting on the bed when Aunty Maria came in. Abah was standing in front of the dressing table, looking clueless and blank. Mesti mamai lagi tu. Aunty Maria did some counter pressure and I felt good. She asked me if I wanted to kneel beside the bed. So I did.

birth visualisation

Every time the surges came, I visualized the waves in the ocean. Bringing you nearer to the beach where I was waiting for you there. Every surge was accompanied with deep breathing and I couldn’t be bothered to count to 30. I just imagine that there were some colorful balloons, going up and up and up and up.

I felt Aunty Maria’s hand on my back doing the counter pressure. At one time, she asked me something and she even said, “It’s Ok if you want to scold me.” Funny, but I couldn’t remember why. Of course I did not scold her. Maybe it’s common for some mothers to get annoyed during transition because I’ve read some stories where mommies scolded the husband, or nurses etc.

Baby Catching

Aunty Maria called Abah a few times to come to me so he could catch you when you come out. The third time, then only he came to me. At that time, I already felt the “ring of fire”. I couldn’t describe how it felt. But as the name suggested, I felt hot down there.

Then another surge. With that surge, the waterbag broke.

And another surge. This time I felt that your head was already dropped into the birth canal. I will be meeting you in the next surge.

Then the surge came. This one really felt like “nak terberak” so I pushed. But something stopped me. The thought of tearing. Oppsie.


I decided to breathe you out instead of pushing you. Then you slid out, just like that. I didn’t know how was Abah’s face because he was at my back, but I am sure he was feeling surreal. Your birth was the first birth Abah attended. Abah missed the previous 3 labors. And Abah caught you when you came out. Masya Allah. It was 10.50 pm. Well, nobody knew the exact time because everybody was busy.

You were then passed to me and Aunty Maria asked me to sit against the wall.

“Assalamualaikum Zaynab,” Aunty Maria said while passing you to me. We were happy calling you Zaynab, but we had forgotten to check if you were really a girl. LOL.

I tried to breastfeed you so that you could help me with the placenta birth. You refused to breastfeed, Zaynab. Instead, you cried and you were loud for such a small body.

You cried and wailed until Abah Azan at your ears. Then you stopped crying. Subhanallah. But you still refused to be breastfed. Aunty Maria asked me if I felt any contraction but I did not. Soon as I answered, plop, something was out from my body. I asked Aunty Maria to check for me what was it and it was the placenta. Allahu Akbar. Just like what I have always imagined. An easy dry night time birth, and placenta birth a few minutes after that. 10 minutes to be exact.

The placenta was nice and intact. There was not much blood on the plastic sheet. But this one needs to be verified by Aunty Maria as she was the one who did the cleaning. (We owe you BIG TIME, Maria).

Subhanallah, Allahu Akbar. We finally made it, Zaynab. Natural birth, drugs free, Abah was there, Aunty Maria was also there continuously giving support and helping with cleaning (which was one of my biggest worry), you were pink and healthy, I was too.

Then she left. You pooped after that, which was a good sign because if we were in the hospital, you will not be released until you pooped. You also finally breastfeed. Which was good too. I peed and that was also good. No stinging sensation whatsoever meaning there was no tear.

“Tabàrakallazî biyadihil moulkou, wahouwa ‘alà koulli shay-in qadîr”

(Blessed be He who has the Kingdom in His Hand! He has power over all things.)

 I planned for a homebirth, Zaynab. But Allah is the greatest planner. He planned everything wonderfully. Right time, right place with the right people around me.

Fabi’ayyi ‘Ālā’i Rabbikumā Tukadhdhibāni

(Which favour of your Lord will you deny?)

I couldn’t sleep that night but I tried. Abah didn’t sleep too until almost subuh. All of us were filled with joy with your presence, Zaynab.

— Noor Azurah 'Wawa' (Nov 2012)

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Saturday, November 8, 2014

Membuat roti rupanya sangat mudah!

Saya sempat menghadiri kelas membuat roti di Merlimau baru-baru ini. Saya memang jenis yang kena berguru, baru berjaya. :)

Resepi saya tidak kongsikan secara public ya. Belum minta izin guru. Tapi saya boleh kongsi secara personal, insya Allah.

Garlic bread dan Roti Perancis

Sebenarnya mahu buat roti kentang, namun terlupa pula nak labelkan jadi sudah terletak hiasan roti sarang lebah pula.

Daripada resepi sweetbun boleh diolah menjadi pelbagai roti, seperti roti kacang merah, roti berisi kaya dan sebagainya

Roti marble loaf, masya Allah sedap sungguh teringat-ingat pula waktu ini

Sos butterscotch untuk dicicah bersama roti sarang lebah. Boleh diguna juga untuk buat kek coklat disalut butterscotch.

Namanya roti hitam putih. Yang putih berinti cheese cream, yang coklat pastilah diisi coklat

Kekacang untuk hiasan.

Roti budak sekolah dan budak kilang, Allahu Akbar mudah banget membuatnya.

Roti paling popular sekarang, roti sarang lebah. Amboi jika dijual boleh mencapai harga RM8 untuk sebesar ini. Walhal membuatnya mudah sahaja. Apapun, belanja bahan dan teknik buat roti gebu yang mahal.

Roti sosej ini Sawda, anak saya yang berusia 6 tahun yang membuatnya (kecuali meletak mayonis dan sos diatas tu)

Roti boy. Jika dibakar, aduh harum seluruh rumah.

Cara menimbang bahan, asingkan bahan basah dan bahan kering. Semasa mencampur dan menguli, masukkan bahan basah kemudian baru masukkan garam.

Muka puas hati dapat belajar membuat roti.

Antara teknik menghias roti

Rehatkan roti dan tunggu naik sebelum membakar

Roti ini sedap dimakan begitu saja, err, iklan roti lain tu

Pengajaran Dari Surah An-Naba

�� Perbentangan Usrah�� oleh : zaiti

✅Pengajaran dari surah an naba

➡ Asbabun Nuzul-
Ibnu Jarir dan ibnu abi hatim dari hasan al basri menyebutkan : Ketika Rasulullah diutus, kaum musyrikin saling bertanya di antara mereka.Diantara pertanyaan yg mereka ajukan ialah mengenai hari terjadinya kiamat, maka dari itu turunlah ayat ini

��Berita besar yg diperselisihkan (ayat 1-6)
-an naba bermaksud berita besar..yg dimaksudkan di sini adalah hari kiamat/hri kebangkitan
- ayt ini menyanggah pendapat org kafir mekah yg mengingkari hari kiamat
-kenapa disebutkan hari kebangkitan/kiamat itu sbg berita besar? berita besar kerana besarnya akibat yg akn berlaku slps kebangkitan itu..bukan dibangkitkan utk kehidupan dunia kali ke2 tetapi tidak lain ialah kebangkitan utk dipertanggugjawabkan apa yg telah kita lakukan di dunia

��Kebesaran dan maha hebat Allah untuk menjadikan hari kiamat.segalanya amat mudah di sisi Allah (ayat 6-16)

- Dalam ayat seterusnya ini diceritakan kebesaran dan kemampuan Allah menciptakan bumi dan kejadian yg luar biasa..menunjukkan Allah maha hebat dan tentu sahaja amat mudah bagi Allah menggulungkan bumi (hari kiamat)

��Hari kebangkitan sudah sangat dekat ( 17-20)
- gambaran hari kiamat yg sangat menggerunkan
- sbg umat islam yg yakin dan percaya kita perlu sentiasa memperdiapkan diri gn bekalan secukupnya utk menghadapinya
- Maha hebat Allah yg mampu menjadikan gunung sbg pasak bui yg kukuh tentu saja amat mudah utk meruntuhkannya

��Kehidupan di akhirat selepas hari kiamat/kebangkitan
- hanya ada dua destinasi yg kita boleh pilih
- ayat 21-30 menceritakan ttg nasib org kafir dan azab yg pedih balasan dari keingkaran mereka di dunia yg patut kita jadikan peringatan
- ayat 30-36 menceritakan nikmat dan balasan baik yg bakal diterima org beriman dan bertaqwa yg menyakini benarnya janji Allah

��Ayat terakhir menceritakan penyesalan bagi org org yg ingkar semasa di dunia


Overnight oat recipes

Bahan-bahannya: Rolled Oat + susu + yogurt + chia seeds + madu

Saya gunakan mason jar yang dibeli dari sahabat saya. Tapi sebenarnya boleh guna apa sahaja bekas yang ada.

Tuang semua dalam bekas ikut suka. Masukkan dalam peti ais. Jika tidak dicampur buah boleh tahan sehingga 3-4 hari (rasa dahulu sebelum makan). Apabila ditambah buah-buahan, maka boleh tahan 2 hari. Tapi sebenarnya, sehari pun jika boleh tahan, hebat sangatlah.

Resepi ubah-ubah:

1) Resepi asal + dried cranberries + cocoa powder
2) resepi asal + pisang + cocoa powder
3) resepi asal + badam cincang + sunflower seed + cocoa powder
4) resepi asal + honeydew

Thursday, November 6, 2014


"Memang penalaran otak manusia luar biasa," simpul cendekiawan Bos Bubalus ketika membacakan makalahnya di klinik Fakultas Kedokteran Hewan, Jalan Taman Kencana, Bogor, "meskipun hasil penelitian kami menunjukkan, bahwa secara kimia dan fisika, otak kerbau mirip otak manusia”

Jadi otak Taufiq Ismail, yang pernah menghuni Taman Kencana, enak juga digoreng kalau begitu"

good luck Aimi.


Ternak yogurt

Simpan resepi.

Akan ada lifetime supply jika selalu buat begini.

Sesudu besar yogurt campur dengan 2 cawan fresh milk.
Letak dalam balang kaca. 
Wrapkan balang kaca dengan aluminium foil atau surat khabar
Lepas tu letak dlm storage box atau chiller box. 
Biarkan dalam suhu bilik 10-12 jam. 
Siap, boleh makan.


Panaskan susu terlebih dahulu sampai suam suam ada buih kecil.
Dah sejuk sikit, baru campur yogurt.

Resepi Afifah Jaafar dan Sha Khan.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Solat Ibu Tidak Khusyuk

Solat adalah pengabdian diri kita kepada Tuhan.
Dengan solat, kita mendapat ketenangan fikiran dan banyak lagi faedah lain.

Tetapi betapa payahnya mahu solat dengan khusyuk apabila ada anak-anak. Masa muda remaja dulu pun tidak khusyuk juga sebab memang kurang ambil berat tentang solat, yang penting buat. :(

Selepas dapat anak seorang, waktu hendak mendirikan solat, waktu itulah dia nak melalak. Kemudian anak pertama dan besar, ada anak nombor dua pula.

Anak nombor satu dan dua sudah pandai solat, kini sedang ajar anak nombor 3 pula. Perangainya suka goyang-goyang dan tolak kita sewaktu solat. Nak dimarah, memang baru usianya 6 tahun, sedang dalam proses belajar. Itu pun banyak perubahan dari tak mahu ikut solat kepada mahu solat sekarang.

Tapi..apabila baru mahu angkat takbir dia akan mula tanya,

"solat apa mak?"

sudah jawab, mahu takbir lagi, ada soalan lain pula,

"berapa rakaat mak?"

bila sudah 3-4 kali kena kacau memang pelbagai perasaan datang dalam jiwa.


Belum lagi sedang baca alfatihah ditolaknya kita. Dan pelbagai lagi aksi yang seperti dibuat-buat lagaknya.

Aduh lagi.

Bagaimana ya, memang solat ibu-ibu sebegini rupa ya?

Allah tahu apa kita buat kan? Usaha kita pentingkan? Hasilnya Allah sahaja yang akan nilaikan?

Allahu Akbar.

Terimalah amalan kami.